Perhaps Alex is the only person I know in CS department that is very into spiritualism. While walking to the parking structure, we talked about our nasal allergies, controlling the mind and accepting ourselves.
Minds are just like computers, thoughts are like the processes; we have many unnecessary processes but most of the times our minds can only execute only one. Therefore, by following these exciting but abundant processes, we can't focus on the main point or the main thought. The worst thing is these so-called abundant thoughts are voluntary meaning we created them and just put them there laying somewhere in a dark corner in our minds. We need to turn some of them off. Alex said he doesn't allow himself to follow it and 'end task's it immediately after it appears.
Accepting ourselves is nothing more than realizing that we are weak and accept it. I think that's how we are getting stronger. How much longer are we pretending to be someone else? By our fashionable clothes, cars... I can't ski. I am afraid of being laughed of if I fell while skiing. He reminds me the main point of going skiing for me is to have a good time. So go ahead and have a good time. Failing when I ski is because I can't ski. I can always have someone to teach me. I can't ski, so I can't ski, that's the truth. Let's live with the truth and don't pretend. That's the point. In addition, my action of falling creates their reactions of laughing of me; that's how it is. They may be laughing at me falling, and I fell because I can't ski; and I can't ski because... I can't ski. So simple, but so long and so far I just wanted to pretend that I am ... cool.
We both agree that the process should take time. But it's worth it.
Alex: "Maybe our brains are not perfect"
Me: "And maybe we are here on earth to perfect them, don't you think so?"
... good laugh ...
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